But I don't want to separate :(

Separation: it happens when you no longer have something in common that binds you together. Among lovers, among friends, among family, even among enemies, these things happen. In every relationship, good or bad, there’s always something connecting you with that person. This thing, we’ll call it a magnet. When you no longer have this magnet keeping you together, you are separated.

Usually when you are separated from someone, you’d be optimistic about it. For the people you love, you’ll tell yourself “It’s ok, we can still meet up” or for the people you hate “To hell with that kid!” and well at first, you try giving it a shot. Thinking maybe just maybe you’d survive without this person close by. You’ll do what seems to be the smartest thing to do: move on. But sooner or later, you miss it. Whether it’s your lover or your enemy, you will miss having this person in your life. You’ll try to get back with this person, just hoping a spark would show and everything will go back to normal. But it’s not that easy. Now that you have lost this magnet, there’s nothing keeping you together. Like it or not, the relationship you once had can no longer be the same.

So what you’ll do is you’d find a replacement. Although not exactly like the person you’ve lost, second best is still better than nothing. Might seem okay for a while, but the fact that you’ll never find someone like that is overwhelming. You feel lost and you could feel a big hole in your heart that may never be filled, it’s unbearable. You start to become desperate. You treasure every moment you have with that person, even if it’s just a minute. What’s worse is when you start to doubt that the person you care about this much is affected at all with you gone.

However, the best thing to do at times like this is just to accept the fact that you no longer have that sense of magic you used to have. Accept this fact and live with it. Remember that no matter how much things have changed, life goes on and it’ll always be up to us how we choose to react to it. Arrange a meet with this person, share your feelings and tell this person what a state you’re in. Probably then, that person would understand and although not the same as it used to be, your relationship will improve to be something even better.